A couple of weeks ago I was reading this post on a blog I've been following lately from a mom who lives in Ottawa. The author writes about how she is reflecting on different events in her life, which have led her to think about the confidence she has gained socially from having a daughter, which led her to think about the confidence she has lost professionally from having a daughter.
The author confesses: " The truth is, I’ve been making excuses when it comes to my career, underestimating my abilities and not stepping outside my comfort zone to take on new responsibilities and leadership because I’m afraid of failure and what others will think" (...) And she continues to say: "I’ve spent so much time working on my achievements outside of work and not enough time working on my professional self." (...) And she finally adds:" I’m already seeing how gender stereotypes are playing into my little girl’s life and I want to show her that women can be smart and powerful. I want her to be a strong leader in all areas of life and that means I should try to be one too. I want that for her…and for me."
Reading this post had me thinking about it for days, feeling like there was something about it that bothered me. I believe that thought would make any mother with a professional background and aspirations reflect on how their life is panning out come parenthood. So after digesting these ideas for days, these are the TWO main resulting sets of conclusions I've come to:
FIRST:
- This is such a common dilemma for women in our day and age. It is gut wrenching, and just confirms my belief that women have to carry the world on their shoulders to live up to the many expectations that this world has for us, and that WE have of ourselves.
- It is, what one of my neighbours very assertively referred to as `cultural insanity`.
- Time is a limited resource, and therefore, even though we would like to dedicate all the necessary time to excel at home and in our careers, there is a point where we have to take some time allocated to A, in order to give it to B.
- Sure, we can `"buy" time if we make a certain salary and can pay somebody to get the laundry done, but up to a certain extent. How far will our ambition (if you will) go?
- In this life, we can't have it all.
SECOND:
- I kind of resent the last frase where she says: "I want to show her that women can be smart and powerful. I want her to be a strong leader in all areas of life and that means I should try to be one too." I think the author may be able to better explain her thoughts on this one, could I ask her to elaborate on this particular point. However, regardless of whether she meant to say what I interpreted in this particular comment or post, I have seen this type of thinking in many other places, coming from women themselves: i.e. "I want to be a positive example for my daughter", "I want to show her women can be leaders", etc. I think these particular statements show how WE WOMEN are seeing ourselves in the same light we complain men seeing us with. We are selling ourselves short. And we are constantly underrating the amount of effort, dedication, skill and intelligence that is needed to successfully run a home and a family. MOREOVER, we are belittling the impact that us women and especially moms, have in society; not only through educating children, but in SHARING the responsibilities to run a household (or is it SUPPORTING the role of those men who go out there and have what we ourselves think are "real jobs"?). I think anybody who participates and contributes to a household can recognize that this role is key to a functional family, whether this role is performed by a nanny, a housewife, or other family members.
So, my final thoughts are:
- How about we forgive ourselves for not being EVERYTHING, ALL THE TIME? how about we forgive ourselves for not "leaning in" at a particular time in our lives, when we are much needed standing straight at home? Perhaps then we can ask for the rest of the world to start doing the same.
- How about we start valuing our work at home fairly? whether we give it 50%, or 30% or 100% of our time, working at home and raising kids is absolutely no less important than working downtown alongside with men. I know many women will think "But I don't get excited about scrubbing bathrooms" -- well, I don't think anybody does. And yet, like in all jobs, there are less exciting tasks that still need to get done as part of the bigger picture.
- Only once we fully and sincerely understand the above, can we stop being OUR OWN WORST ENEMY.
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